I am a 40 year old widowed mother of a fabulous son (age 15) who is my whole world. Since Thanksgiving Day 2005, I have buried someone I love every two years....11/24/05-my husband died of a premature heartattack, now believed to be brought on by the diabetic drug Avandia; 09/07/07- I lost a baby~Kapena William Garcia-stillborn with triple nuchal chord and true knot; and 08/02/09, my mother died at age 66, of late stage dementia~
I am now facing a layoff from my State Job; I'm behind on my bills and I take prozac for depression and oxycodone for a lower back injury I sustained in 2005. I keep going because I have to live for my son.....he is my world; I know God loves me and is there....He always provides even when things seem bleekest...I have worked in law enforcement since being in the Navy (1988) and now at age 40, I'm facing having to go back to school and switching career paths...I'm enrolled in school for the Spring 2010 semester and I'm going to try to get a Nursing Degree.
I have also survived an abuse relationship (my sons biological father) and work part-time as a Domestic Violence Advocate....maybe God is leading me in that direction~they say ALL things happen for a reason....and that God will not give you anything you cannot handle....hmmm, I wish He didn't trust me so much, but I am thankful for the blessings I do have~
I'm not sure what I need, I do need help with my debt; I do need help with my depression.....but, I'd like to be here (or there) for those that are worse off than me.....I know there are people suffering far more than me and if I can do anything to help you....please let me know
"NEVER LOOK DOWN ON ANYONE....UNLESS YOU ARE HELPING THEM UP"
